Faith is the reality of what we hope for, the proof of what we don’t see. 2 The elders in the past were approved because they showed faith. 3 By faith we understand that the universe has been created by a word from God so that the visible came into existence from the invisible. (Heb. 11:1-3, CEB)
Faith. I guess that’s what it all comes down to. We can’t get through the 12 steps (or life really) without it. We often say that faith is belief in what we don’t see, this verse says something different. It says that faith itself is the proof of what we don’t see. Faith isn’t some mystical emotion that we have until we find proof of God’s existence. Faith is the proof and, in that way, we could think of faith as a gift. It’s not a placeholder until we get to “heaven” and find out everything we’ve believed is real. It’s the confidence that our beliefs are real right here, right now.
And yet, that’s a problem for many of us. Faith is not an easy thing to access. How many of us have unwavering confidence that our beliefs are real? Probably very few. Practically speaking, human faith is imperfect. It’s all well and good to speak of faith as the present reality of the future that we hope for, but how do we get it? And when we have it, how do we hold on to it? I’m not really sure about any of that, to be honest. The gospel of Mark perpetually shows the disciples struggling to understand and live out their faith. If the disciples, Jesus’ own followers, struggle with faith then I generally assume it’s probably okay for me to struggle with it as well.
I’m curious though, what’re your struggles with faith as it pertains to the 12 steps and the 12 step process? How do these struggles impact each step? Or perhaps I should just ask how they’re impacting step 8 presently?
If you have time to respond, please do. It might help us as we prepare messages in the future.